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January 11, 2017

January 11, 2017

No last cut moment, be it a walking towards something right or away from something wrong, happens overnight. These significant life decisions require courage and clarity, and those come in time and with a commitment to staying with the parts of ourselves from which running would be easier. And even when we finally garner sufficient boldness to walk through the fire and make a last cut, only time knows how long it will take to fully settle into a new state of being. Even when these last cuts are profound moments of arrival, clarity and knowing, they still call for a period of transition and integration. 

Last year, following my surgery, I wrote a piece questioning the clarity of my own resolve to go flat in light of the need to process other, perhaps not as bright emotions, that had accumulated through past trauma. Would the world (or would I) doubt my decisiveness if I outwardly shared the less than positive and optimistic along the way? I ended up clear, as I have in the past, that the acknowledgement of the full spectrum of our emotions is what makes us human and what makes us heal. Complete willingness to sit in the darkness, sadness, disappointment, anxiety, fear or pain by no means diminishes the bright victory of the stepping away from or moving towards. This process helps me emerge with greater clarity, presence and willingness to be seen. 

These last cut moments can be wholly right and clear, yet still bittersweet. There is sacrifice in growth. There is the need for time to let go of that which was good or that which is holding you back. I have experienced the juxtaposition of clarity with cloudy many times over with my body, divorce, closing a business, walking away from a cycle of betrayal, the evolution of friendships, career changes, moves and so on. Every last cut moment, and they happen all the time in varying scale, is not without a mourning of that which was good and right. Those memories, tears and markings remind us of what was true in another moment in time, as we step out and into a new iteration of self that is more fully embodied and exuding what we believe in most. The movement towards, or back into, ourselves is where we find and honor new {often never imagined} freedom. 

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